Arena 37 June 2009
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oritsu_luvJust realized I never did this one. Better late than never, right?? ^_^;;;
Note: I'm doing this from a really crappy scan with the end of each page blurred beyond legibility. Sorry for the holes!
Interview after Miyavi's final show with PSC
You cried at the Yaon show.
Where did that come from!? (LOL) Yeah, but I didn't mean to cry...I really wanted to be able to finish the song.
You said, 'I'll talk about it when the time comes', and I saw how much it hurt you not to be able to talk about it, and it was really hard for me not to be able to write about that. So I really understood how you felt.
Yeah. I wanted to face everyone about it all as soon as possible. Where should I begin? First off, I wanted to make the announcement about my marriage and my baby to everyone after I'd graduated and gotten everything settled with the company. So I still feel really sorry about how everyone found out, because it all came out in a way that was not what I wanted at all. I do feel a responsibility to all the staff members who helped me out afterwards, and I do think that it was my own naivety that prevented me from being able to really settle things with the company first.
I know how much it all hurt you, so maybe this isn't the thing to say, but now I think that the fact that it all came out like that before the Yaon show was a good thing. You were able to use that spot to tell everyone in your own words, and the fact that the company allowed you to announce it there really brought home the warmth of the company.
Yeah. But until that day I was an artist under the PS Company, so I really wanted to keep that promise until the end. But President Ozaki said, "Wouldn't it be best if you tell them all yourself?" That made me really happy. I thought, "Oh, this woman - this company - doesn't think of me as a product. They respect me as a person." It made me realize that all over again. I was so happy I almost cried. And the fact that everyone said "Congratulations" when I actually made the announcement at the show...I can't even express how happy it made me. I thought, "Even though I hurt them, these people still love me. I'm going to love them for the rest of my life. I'm going to say to spend my whole life saying "I love you." to them."
And you cried, and the Comiyavi cried. The Comiyavi next to me said "Fuck you! But I need you! I love you!"[THE NEXT FEW SENTENCES ARE ILLEGIBLE]
Me too, I'll love them with everything I've got. And I want them all to love all of me. So I didn't want to lie. I'm singing about how I live my life, and how I think. I couldn't hide my marriage or my baby. I just couldn't do it, and songs like that would never resonate with anyone anyway. That's why I wanted to tell everything. I want to sing songs without any lies in them.
It must have been the Comiyavi who love you so strongly as an artist
who made you think that way. And her, too. If she was the kind of person who wanted to suppress you as an artist, you wouldn't have been able to think that way either.
I'd never thought about marriage before. But after I met her, we were talking about things one day, and she said "When you are having dinner at home, you're mine. But when you're doing your music or being on stage, you are th world's, and your fan's!!" And I thought, "Oh, I'm going to spend my whole life learning so much from this woman. And this is a woman who everyone has to love." I want my love for the Comiyavi to make my family happy. And of course I want all of them to love my family and my baby too.
I think they know how you feel. Hence the "Fuck you! But I need you! I love you!" When the person you love finds happiness [THE NEXT FEW SENTENCES ARE ILLEGIBLE]
But you, a dad! I'm shocked.
Hahahaha. When we put my music on, she moves like crazy! It makes me so happy.
Ooh, she's already a Comiyavi! (LOL)
But when I put my face too close, she kicks it. (LOL)
Hahaha. Kicking the world famous Miyavi-sama? She really is your kid! So strong! (LOL) I met she's saying, "Don't dawdle here! Go work!" (LOL)
But it's true. I've got so much to protect now. But I'm going to go for it, I'm going to do my best. I know that the hard part is just beginning, but I'll be fine, because I know what's important now: my family and my Comiyavi.And really the Comiyavi are part of my family too. I decided on a name for the fan club: C.W.I.F (Co-miyavi Worldwide International Family). (LOL) I have a fan club event every year on my birthday. I'll do a show at C.C Lemon Hall, and then I'll go on a world tour, including places I've never been like Russia, Italy, Mexico and Argentia. Then I'll do a tour in Japan after that, or at the beginning of next year. Like I said on stage, no matter what anyone says, I'm going to keep screaming "I love you!" I just really want to thank everyone for the past 10 years --- [THE NEXT FEW SENTENCES ARE ILLEGIBLE]
Note: I'm doing this from a really crappy scan with the end of each page blurred beyond legibility. Sorry for the holes!
Interview after Miyavi's final show with PSC
You cried at the Yaon show.
Where did that come from!? (LOL) Yeah, but I didn't mean to cry...I really wanted to be able to finish the song.
You said, 'I'll talk about it when the time comes', and I saw how much it hurt you not to be able to talk about it, and it was really hard for me not to be able to write about that. So I really understood how you felt.
Yeah. I wanted to face everyone about it all as soon as possible. Where should I begin? First off, I wanted to make the announcement about my marriage and my baby to everyone after I'd graduated and gotten everything settled with the company. So I still feel really sorry about how everyone found out, because it all came out in a way that was not what I wanted at all. I do feel a responsibility to all the staff members who helped me out afterwards, and I do think that it was my own naivety that prevented me from being able to really settle things with the company first.
I know how much it all hurt you, so maybe this isn't the thing to say, but now I think that the fact that it all came out like that before the Yaon show was a good thing. You were able to use that spot to tell everyone in your own words, and the fact that the company allowed you to announce it there really brought home the warmth of the company.
Yeah. But until that day I was an artist under the PS Company, so I really wanted to keep that promise until the end. But President Ozaki said, "Wouldn't it be best if you tell them all yourself?" That made me really happy. I thought, "Oh, this woman - this company - doesn't think of me as a product. They respect me as a person." It made me realize that all over again. I was so happy I almost cried. And the fact that everyone said "Congratulations" when I actually made the announcement at the show...I can't even express how happy it made me. I thought, "Even though I hurt them, these people still love me. I'm going to love them for the rest of my life. I'm going to say to spend my whole life saying "I love you." to them."
And you cried, and the Comiyavi cried. The Comiyavi next to me said "Fuck you! But I need you! I love you!"[THE NEXT FEW SENTENCES ARE ILLEGIBLE]
Me too, I'll love them with everything I've got. And I want them all to love all of me. So I didn't want to lie. I'm singing about how I live my life, and how I think. I couldn't hide my marriage or my baby. I just couldn't do it, and songs like that would never resonate with anyone anyway. That's why I wanted to tell everything. I want to sing songs without any lies in them.
It must have been the Comiyavi who love you so strongly as an artist
who made you think that way. And her, too. If she was the kind of person who wanted to suppress you as an artist, you wouldn't have been able to think that way either.
I'd never thought about marriage before. But after I met her, we were talking about things one day, and she said "When you are having dinner at home, you're mine. But when you're doing your music or being on stage, you are th world's, and your fan's!!" And I thought, "Oh, I'm going to spend my whole life learning so much from this woman. And this is a woman who everyone has to love." I want my love for the Comiyavi to make my family happy. And of course I want all of them to love my family and my baby too.
I think they know how you feel. Hence the "Fuck you! But I need you! I love you!" When the person you love finds happiness [THE NEXT FEW SENTENCES ARE ILLEGIBLE]
But you, a dad! I'm shocked.
Hahahaha. When we put my music on, she moves like crazy! It makes me so happy.
Ooh, she's already a Comiyavi! (LOL)
But when I put my face too close, she kicks it. (LOL)
Hahaha. Kicking the world famous Miyavi-sama? She really is your kid! So strong! (LOL) I met she's saying, "Don't dawdle here! Go work!" (LOL)
But it's true. I've got so much to protect now. But I'm going to go for it, I'm going to do my best. I know that the hard part is just beginning, but I'll be fine, because I know what's important now: my family and my Comiyavi.And really the Comiyavi are part of my family too. I decided on a name for the fan club: C.W.I.F (Co-miyavi Worldwide International Family). (LOL) I have a fan club event every year on my birthday. I'll do a show at C.C Lemon Hall, and then I'll go on a world tour, including places I've never been like Russia, Italy, Mexico and Argentia. Then I'll do a tour in Japan after that, or at the beginning of next year. Like I said on stage, no matter what anyone says, I'm going to keep screaming "I love you!" I just really want to thank everyone for the past 10 years --- [THE NEXT FEW SENTENCES ARE ILLEGIBLE]
